I am........

I am.... a Christian, daughter, sister, wife, aunt, granddaughter,

friend, and lover of all things scrapbooking.

I want.... to learn how to sew, to make more time

to scrapbook, go on another cruise with my husband.

I have... no kids yet, but praying we will get pregnant soon.

I wish... I could lose weight and keep it off, have three

kids, and move to Indiana.

I hate... pickles, mushrooms, grapefruit, and liver.

I fear... not getting the chance to have kids, mice, and snakes.

I hear... my husband tell me he loves me all the time! :)

I search... for my cell phone all the time!

I wonder... how much longer we have on this earth, where Cory

and I will go next, if we will have a boy or a girl.

I regret... some decisions I made in high school that cost me

an extremely close friend.

I love... Jesus Christ, my husband, my family, and fall

I ache... after I haven't exercised in weeks, for the people who

have lost their jobs.

I always... lock the door when I come in the house, put my

seat belt on, am looking for something I have lost.

I usually... spend my lunch break on the Internet, call my mom

at least 4 times a week, tell Cory I love him.

I am not... as patient as I should be. But working on that.

I dance... when a great song comes on, but not usually.

I sing... in the car, at home, when I hear a song I love.

I never... forget my cell phone, or makeup.

I sometimes... go in crazy mode and want the house

spotless. Other times, it doesn't bother me.

I cry... over sappy love stories, when I can't see my family,

and when I think of death.

I am not always... the wife I want to be.... working on that

everyday.

I lose... EVERYTHING!! My husband gets very annoyed

with me. If I don't write it down, I will probably forget to

do it.

I am grateful... for an amazing husband who loves me and

takes care of me.

I need to... spend less time watching TV and more time reading.

I should... eat less and exercise more.

Who are you??

What to say, what to say..............

I will admit that I have been feeling a bit better. I haven't been thinking about my big little fear. When I feel that feeling coming along I try to think about other things and get busy doing something. Anything. So far, it has worked. We will see how long that lasts.

This weekend I was forced talked into playing summer softball. I played in high school and was half way descent. BUT that was ten years a couple of years ago. So I'm a little rusty. I played first baseman and that's the only position I know how to play. Never played anywhere else. Therefore I feel I must do well on first base or I will be moved. Yikes! Moved to who knows where and will probably do even worse! I have to play good! Yesterday was our first practice and let me tell you, I am sooooo sore today! Wowsers! I mean I exercise a little but my arm is killing me! Guess it tells me I'm not the young 16 year old I once was.

Other then that we had a quiet nice weekend. Looking forward to this weekend, 4 days!! Super excited! I need some time off. Only 5 more weeks of school and were out for summer break! I can't wait. Sometimes I think the teachers get more excited then the students!

Some great friends of ours: Maurice and Sandy

They live in Holland so we rarely get to see them!

They are both such sweet people and we are so

glad they are in our lives!

Just a preview of some picts I will post Wed. 

Wordless Wednesday

Wow! I can't believe it's already Wednesday!

Wordless Wednesday is all I have done since last

Wednesday and will probably be the only thing I

do until next Wednesday. I have been really

struggling lately and can't seem to jump over

the hump, or mountain as it seems to me. I want to

to blog but feel down and have nothing to say.

I do not feel that I am ready to share, if ever.

So sorry for the absence. Hopefully I will get

over my fears soon and be back to happy blogging.

Saturday morning waffles and a

hot cup of coffee

5th Wedding Anniversary 2010

Easter flowers from my honnie!

Wordless Wednesday

My Nephew: Kobi

He's a mess if you can't tell by these

picts, but I adore him!!

Hahahaha!!! Long story, but I told him

he was turning into the Grinch!

Cutie Pie!

Enjoying a warm summer day

Pouting because he couldn't open

his Christmas presents yet.

Cruise Picts

I know our cruise was last summer but

it's cold here today and a little gloomy and

I wanted to get my spirits up. What better

way then to look at pictures from our amazing

cruise!! It was our first and hopefully not our last.

We both loved it and can not wait until

we can go again! 

Cozumel and Progresso, Mexico

Everything was gorgeous and we had the

most amazing time!



Oh how I wish I was on our cruise again!!





Wordless Wednesday

The Sparks/Russell Family and Grandparents

Sister #1

The Shaw Family and grandparents

Sister #2

 Cowan Family and grandparents

Sister #3

The grandkids

The great grandkids

A Great Weekend

It was definitely a great 4 day weekend. Although I missed my husband and wished he was with me, I had an amazing time with the fam that I only get to see about 2 maybe 3 times a year. I love spending time with them which makes me want to move to Indiana even more. It's probably not going to happen this year but I can still wish and pray that we do move there soon. I want the close knit, Sunday lunches, Saturday game nights, let's go shopping, hang out, kind of family. My husband has this with his family because alomost all of them live in the same town or very close. I want my kids to grow up knowing their extended family, playing with their cousins, and being as close to their grandparents as I am with mine. I want that for my kids and I guess a little selfishly for myself. I have never lived close to any of my family except for my brother. But he has moved away and I miss having him and his family around. Not only do I want this for my kids and myself, but I love my family. We get along so well and I want the chance to grow even closer. Maybe some day we can find jobs where they live and I can have my wish. That's what I keep telling myself.

While I was in town my cousins came down to see us. I got to love on baby Gracie the whole time. Made me want one even more. She is sooo tiny and sweet. She's two and a half months and only weighs nine pounds. Tiny little thing. She smelt so good and melted my heart. One of my other cousins came up and we all got to see her growing pregnant belly which made me yearn for my belly to be growing too. I went shopping to buy her some gifts since I probably won't be seeing her before the baby is born in July. Made me want to just keep the stuff for myself. Ready for it to be my turn. Still thinking positive and praying this is the month. Why is it that when you are trying and can't get pregnant there are always babies and pregnant women everywhere?